This year of 2021 marks the 50th
anniversary of my graduation from high school. The Walter M.
Williams class of 1971 gathered for a reunion in August. It was a
time of hugs, laughter, and memories from high school years. I
have a secret from my high school days that I have been keeping, and I want to
share it through this medium for myself, my family, and my classmates and it is
this: much of my high school days were difficult.
I did not apply myself
scholastically very much in high school. I could blame that fact on
my teachers or the fact that I worked a part time job, but that was not the
full reason. I just did not try that hard and my grades showed
it. My grades in college and graduate school were much better that
they were in high school. The main reason why my grades were not
very good was because of this secret.
It was not my teachers
or my classmates fault that my high school experience was difficult.
It was difficult for them for other reasons. We were growing
up and learning to discover who we were and who we wanted to be. We
were breaking free from our parents, and developing our own sense of
autonomy. We were also maneuvering issues like civil rights and
school integration. Have you ever seen the movie "Remember the
Titans"? That will give you some idea about what my high
school classmates and I dealt with (black and white) as my high school was the
first predominately white high school in the south with a black football coach,
Jerome Evans. While I was immersed in those challenges, my
secret made my high school experience even more difficult.
What was my secret that
few knew and that I did not talk about? The secret was that my
father was an alcoholic and that impacted so much of my world.
Alcoholism led to my Dad losing a good job... a marital
separation... and a marital divorce. Since my Dad did not
pay child support, I worked part time after school to help provide
money instead of participating in high school clubs and athletic teams.
Eventually, my Mom re-married and I did not adjust very well to having to a
step-parent in my life. I wish I had reached out to my classmates
and to my teachers to share this and get support, but I did not know how at the
time. I share this not for your pity or sympathy, but so you might understand me and learn.
In the Fall 1970, I
discovered some good news that had been a secret to me: that Jesus Christ
loved me and gave His life that I might be whole and be holy.
While humans can let you down, he has never let me
down. As I discovered the grace of God in Christ, a change begin to
happen in me that most of my high school classmates never saw. As I
discovered the love and forgiveness in Christ, I also began a journey on
how to love and forgive my father and to love myself.
To any of my high school
classmates reading this: I wish I had had a better high school
experience and I am sorry I that I could not and or would not share
my secret with some of you. I just did not know how.
Though you might not have changed my circumstance, your care and compassion
would have changed my perspective.
To any of you that work with children in school,
church, and athletic teams: let me encourage you to pay attention
to those kids who simply need encouragement and a listening ear about something
unrelated to reading, math, or the team. Most of us never really know what someone in our office, our class, or our neighborhood is dealing with. Have a joy-filled
week.- Pastor Randy Wall
PRAYER
O God, there are so many people
hurting around me that I do not know
about. Give me your Spirit to reach out
to them and let them know of my care and your care; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.